July 15th, 2003

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"Grrrr....." or "Two More Reasons to Learn Swedish"

So, one of the things about Sweden is that everything must be communicated and all expectations must be managed, otherwise, something that you never anticipated always happens.

For example, take my internet service. Since my company set it up for me, one would assume that they were going to pay it for me as well. However, as it turns out, they only set it up for you, and then you pay it and they reimburse you for it. Which seems entirely reasonable to me. However, since they said "we'll take care of the internet service" when I first got it up and running, one could have assumed that also meant that they were just get the bill directly and take care of it.

It's kinda annoying, since both ways would have been right, but both sides should have made sure that the expectations were clear.

And the second annoying thing will be having my expense accounts reimbursed. The application is in Swedish. I guess I can find a secretary somewhere to submit the paperwork for me, or I can just have someone sit down with me and work through it. I am not sure what I'll do yet.

You know, if these are my major issues of the day (so far), I think I should stop bitching. :-)
  • Current Music
    "Crazy In Love" by Beyonce Knowles
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Viva La Italia!

So I am little happy at the moment. I just found out that I will be in Milan, Italy during the last week of July! So I will be there to work for the week, and then I have to come back on Saturday, because I have parties that I already committed to attending and hosting on that Saturday. But that will leave all of Friday to have fun! :-)

And maybe, just maybe, I'll have a good night out on Friday :-)
  • Current Music
    "Surrender (ultramix)" by Laura Pausini
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"Fuck It All" or "Bad Day at the Office"

Today was a shitty day at work. I came so close to quitting and flying back to the US that I had the phone in my hand ready to call the travel agency! I suppose I can't go into details in the public part of this, but I don't even want to go into details in the private section of LJ either.

I was in such a good mood earlier today to...it sucks. But now I have to go and drink bottles of wine with some of my friends on the beach. It is summer after all. Maybe it is warm enough to take a nap there and just be there with my friends under the stars (and the sun that rises at 2:45am here in Sweden), relaxing and being contemplative for a while. It couldn't hurt.
  • Current Music
    "Black & White" by Sarah McLachlan
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Today was just such a bad day at work, that it sapped my energy to be at the beach. I gave my bottles of wine away and just ran home at top speed. I just came back to the apartment (I don't even have the mental state to clean it, and it's kinda messy). And I just set the CD player to random and then it went to the Sarah McLachlan "Surfacing" CD. And that just kinda pushed me right over the edge. So if you wanna know how I feel, here are the lyrics:

Full of Grace

The winter here's cold, and bitter
it's chilled us to the bone
we haven't seen the sun for weeks
to long too far from home
I feel just like I'm sinking
and I claw for solid ground
I'm pulled down by the undertow
I never thought I could feel so low
oh darkness I feel like letting go


If all of the strength and all of the courage
come and lift me from this place
I know I could love you much better than this
full of grace
full of grace
my love


So it's better this way, I said
having seen this place before
where everything we said and did
hurts us all the more
its just that we stayed, too long
in the same old sickly skin
I'm pulled down by the undertow
I never thought I could feel so low
oh darkness I feel like letting go


If all of the strength
and all of the courage
come and lift me from this place
I know I could love you much better than this
full of grace
full of grace
my love.


It's been an afternoon where I could do nothing right, despite my best efforts. It's emotional exhaustion. Hopefully it passes soon.
  • Current Music
    "Full of Grace" by Sarah McLachlan